I miss you mom.
Tomorrow is thanksgiving. Ed and I live in your house, and Hayley is staying in your room. You would have loved it...Specially seeing the girls as much as I did this year.
Tonight i fell on the cement coming outside the bank. It was dark and raining and there was a pothole...and suddenly i was face down on the ground. My nose bled. I have a fat lip and I look at myself and I think of all those times you fell in the last years.
A year ago, we were at the Tamarack for Thanksgiving..we were so sure we were going to get you to come home for Thanksgiving..but then you took a turn for the worse...and on Thanksgiving you felt pretty terrible. It was you and me and Ed and Jules and Christine and you barely ate...didnt even want the pecan pie.
it has been a year ...and yet i still hear your voice in my mind...I am amazed at what a momma's girl i was...and am...and how deep it is..
i find this so hard to live without you.
this isnt a real happy post....but i am thankful...
thankful mom..for you....for dad..for the love and stability you gave me...
thankful that the reason i feel so much pain is because i had so much love...
i miss you mom..
happy thanksgiving...i hope you are thankful now.....
catherine
