It has been 7+months and I have been working for these past few months getting things done around my mom's home...and trying to clean up and clear out...But now it is time...
I am having an estate sale in the next few weeks...and we have gone thru almost all of it...
my darling middle daughter is here with me...
at the same time..my hubby has had to take a huge cut in pay because of the economy...and after the past few years of loads of financial struggles we have made the decision to sell our house and move into my moms...we need financial freedom...it will change our lives and we need it...i dont see any other way....
but.........i have such mixed emotions...
on one hand..i am so blessed to have a mom and dad that took such good care of their finances that we can inherit this house...what a blessing..(that was their depression mind set)
and as i go thru all their paperwork, i see how it was their dream...their future..their hope...
i run across all the paperwork that my dad so carefully saved of every little thing he did in the house...
and then i look at my husband and i know that the house we are in now is his dream...and that he is truly broken hearted and keeps hoping for a last minute miracle. (but now we are in the modern day depression)
and the work...
there is so much work...
we have a Huge house..and i didnt hesitate to fill it.
and i am trying so hard to be happy and cheery and full of life and every now and then i just get so sad at all the loss in the past few years....
but i know how life is...i know that ecclesiastes is true ...that there is a time for everything...and in time..it will all work out ok....
and i have tender memories at my parents home...good memories...happy memories...
so it is a peaceful place for me....
BUT the work!
finishing the sale...
finishing the house we are in now...
packing...storing...going thru stuff...
everything is simply overwhelming..
"hot dog" wish i had a million dollars...(from Its a wonderful life!)
ah.......
cleaning out the old memories..building on a strong foundation...
can i make new memories in this house of theirs?
i miss y0u mommy..
thank you...........................................
catherine
